Tuesday, January 22, 2008

When you pray, move your feet.

If you ever have seen the movie "What the Bleep do we know." http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/What_the_Bleep_Do_We_Know!?, then you will probably remember the scene on the basketball court, where they explain that matter is made mostly of space. Pretty much like our planetary system. Such a small piece of matter orbiting or vibrating creating what we percieve as a solid piece of matter. Ok, so how about sound? We cant see sound, but we know its there. "Sound is what can be perceived by a living organism through its sense of hearing.[1] Physically, sound is vibrational mechanical energy that propagates through matter as a wave."-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sound. Key word ENERGY. matter and energy go hand in hand don't they? Imagine this scenario. Your in your room with your stereo on. You can't just hear it one place in the room. You can hear if your ears were on the ceiling, under your bed. maybe even outside of your room. So is it safe to say that this energy exists in entirety through out the whole room? Unlike us or any other matter that is only condensed in its form. Ok, so what? The matter that makes up our bodies is vibrating in and out of existance. Sound is a waveform that is continous, almost infinite. You can imagine how sound could be a very powerful force compared to the spacious matter that we are. Shrink yourself down as a proton, and surf the sound wave dude.

Ok, so with a better understanding of what we have here. Lets think about the last time you danced. Was it a slow dance with a lover? Were you crip walkin? The macerena? Or was it alone in your room in front of a mirror? why were you dancing? Because you were at a wedding and everyone else looked like they were having fun so you joined? Or maybe it was because your mom signed you up for ballet lessons. But most likely you were drunk as fuck at the bar, and your jam came on. What was the song? Poor some sugar on me? Drop it like its hot? maybe it was piano man and everyone in the bar was swaying back and forth, slurring but never missing a word of the entire song as loud as they can. The point is, is that at some moment of that experience, you decided (sometimes unvoluntarily) to "feel" the music. or what i like to call being the music. When your dancing, your not thinking about where the next movement of your body is going to go, it just happens. Its actually quite a phenomena. Think about it, you are predicting the next beat to the music by placing that elbow on the floor. where ever it ends up, it somehow impresses yourself and maybe even people. How raw can you get? Do how much booze do you need? what kinda of drug must you be on? why do we even need to be fucked up to do it? I will tell you why. It's because lets face it people have a hard time being themselves, especially around strangers. I admit I fall victom to this often. But at the same time, I think (and i know this sounds full of myself) that only certain people deserve to see me "raw". Close friends, and other strangers that are noodling. concerts. shows. festivals.

Speaking of live music. Lets bring back all that crap about matter, sound, bill nyle style. Mass amounts of sound waves, physical movement, all scattered all over the place. Example of how powerful music can be, see Limb Bizkit's Breakstuff from woodstock that caused a riot. (warning fucked up material.) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ywuYC0n5cNg&feature=related . Notice the crowd, especially around 3:00 minutes into the video. Thats a lot of people. and unforunately they're angry. Pro's of this video: The government realizes that this is what they are up against. So fuck off. This is not my solution, rather its the total opposite.

Part II coming soon.

Monday, January 7, 2008

Damn elephants will get you everytime

Ok, so I promised I wouldn't do this, but I think its important not so much to inform the few readers I have, but to express my experiences for my own good.

Being the new year and all, It's hard not to look back and reflect on last year. I was shocked to realize everything I had learned in only a year. Particullary, my metaphsyical journey that ive realized I have been on for awhile.

Religion was a rariety in my imidiate family. I have vaque memories of reading the bible with my mom and sister, but thats about it. As for church...I have always been mad awkward attending. I never knew any of the prayers, no one ever told me what faith to believe in. My first communion was at my friends funeral where I walked up and ate the bread drank the wine cause I didnt know any better. (I think this is what a communion is.) Despite my lack of understanding of God growing up, I was always drawn to paranormal shit, ghosts, and even aliens.

I stayed on this path all through high school and two years into college, living a social experiment gone wrong kinda life. Typical teenager story, avoiding home life by ANY means possible. To some, I am sure were worried where my life was heading, but to me it was freedom. Luckily, my parents were buisy with thier own lifes to know the extent of what was really going on. I am thankful for this however, because if it wasnt for this independance, I don't think these experiences would have ever crossed my path.

So one day, I was living at my dads and my friend came over with a handfull of fungi. I knew mushrooms were suppose to make you hallucinate etc., but I had no idea what it was going to be like. My friend told me to look at a painted picture as if it were a magic eye. And then, yes I finally "learned" how to trip. I can feel my face melting just thinking about it. Most of the night i was under an uncontrolable laughter spell. In fact I couldn't help but call my close friends only to giggle non-stop like a little school girl. Leasoned learned. Theres no cell phones in baseball. After finally chillin out, I sunk in literally to a gigantic sofa, and watched the infamous last dispatch (yes, i have to say it. where i made a 3 second cameo during elias http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Last_Dispatch_(documentary ) . Somewhere in between the amazing sound that i was hearing, and the kaledascope room, I managed to have a conversation with god. It was short and sweet. My body...somehow being part of the room, being part of everything but mostly just being. The only thing i said was god, if this is god thats making feel these unbelievable feelings, then guide me, cause if this is what heaven is like, then i want it. or something like that. Then i moved on to the rest of my trip. Woke up the next morning. THought to myself, damn, drugs are whacked, i was talkin to god and shit or myself or something last night. Tried it a couple more times on a social level. Had fun.

It was strange how things began to fall in place after all that. I moved away to college, and met this girl, we'll call her lucy. Lucy and I, had a few things in common. Most importantly, tripping and music. Lucy taught me about love...Cheesey, yes I know. Your probably thinking im talkin about the kinda love between lovers. No, I am talkin about the love that the Beatles spoke of. "All you need is love..." kinda love. you get it. hippie bullshit. We rarely talked about it, instead she would make me listen to the beatles during a trip to get the message. I began to think a lot differently, and actually acting on it. Such a transition too fast can be some what depressing. I started to realize all the fucked up things in this world. Started to really take a look at myself, and who I had become, and how I had been taking part in all the bullshit. Sometimes I questioned my sanity. Questioned the drugs.

Then almost a year ago. I was surfin the internet on some etheogens, and I stumbled across someones myspace that was completey dedicated to the infamous 2012 date. This was the first time hearing of such a thing, but i became obsessed almost imediately. Obsessed you ask? I know it sounds like i want destruction chaos...no, not at all. Read my previouss post for my view of this date. I want to say with in a week of this discovery, my mother had went to see a woman who called herself a spirititual healer. My mom made her out to be a phsycic, and I quickly became skeptical. I ended up showing my mom the myspace pages, and she insisted that I went to see this woman.

I had made a date to meet with the woman. I talked to a very close friend of mine who supports my insanity, and i told her that i will bring up the date to this woman, and see what she has to say about it. She replied that if its true then that theres a good reason to live rest of life as a party if you will. Partying isnt much my thing any more. so instead I would settle with complete freedom.

So a little more information on this woman. My moms friend had met her in california one time, and somehow they became friends. She came to visit for a little while, and stayed with my moms friend. I showed up to the house not knowing what to expect. Sometimes when you first see someone, you just know. Its like when a potsmoker sees another potsmoked. Got Blunt, Got weed? She was older, but yet young in her appearance. I want to say she had strands of gray hair, but that could just be my impression of wisdom that I am remembering. Either way i think you get the idea.

She sat me down in a recling chair. Got comfortable, and relaxed. she then put her hands near my ankles, and began to chit chat. mostly small stuff, icebreakers i guess. I couldn't go into exact detail of what we talked about. I remember a little bit on quantum physics (she passed down "what the bleap do we know" in trade of some ganj). She spoke about a grid like field or force around the earth. I would notice her hands being extrememly warm as she moved them on different parts of the body. I told her about my interest in psycadelics. I tried to stay away from questions like am i going to be rich, or about my future. I was more concerned about the science and energy behind all of this. I later researched this form of "healing" as called Reiki
Reiki http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Reiki
"In a typical whole-body Reiki treatment,[29] the practitioner asks the recipient to lie down, usually on a massage table, and relax. Loose, comfortable clothing is usually worn during the treatment. The practitioner might take a few moments to enter a calm or meditative state of mind and mentally prepare for the treatment,[30] which is usually carried out without any unnecessary talking.[31]
The treatment proceeds with the practitioner placing his hands on the recipient in various positions. However, some practitioners use a non-touching technique, where the hands are held a few centimetres away from the recipient's body, for some or all of the positions. The hands are usually kept still for 3 to 5 minutes before moving to the next position. Overall, the hand positions usually give a general coverage of the head, the front and back of the torso, the knees and feet. Between 12 and 20 positions are used, with the whole treatment lasting 45 to 90 minutes.[32]
Some practitioners use a fixed set of hand positions. Others use their intuition to guide them as to where treatment is needed,[33] sometimes starting the treatment with a 'scan' of the recipient to find such areas. The intuitive approach might also lead to individual positions being treated for much shorter or longer periods of time.
It is reported that the recipient often feels warmth or tingling in the area being treated, even when a non-touching approach is being used. A state of deep relaxation, combined with a general feeling of well-being, is usually the most noticeable immediate effect of the treatment, although emotional releases can also occur.[34] As the Reiki treatment is said to be stimulating natural healing processes, instantaneous 'cures' of specific health problems are not usually observed. A series of three or more treatments, typically at intervals of 1 to 7 days, is usually recommended if a chronic condition is being addressed.[35] Regular treatments, on an on-going basis, can be used with the aim of maintaining well-being. The interval between such treatments is typically in the range of 1 to 4 weeks, except in the case of self-treatment when a daily practice is common.[36]...

...Spiritual practice
Many practitioners use Reiki as the basis of a spiritual practice, or to augment other spiritual practices. The cornerstone of Reiki spiritual practice is a daily one hour self-treatment,[46] conducted in a meditative frame of mind. As well as maintaining physical, mental and emotional well-being, this practice is understood to induce spiritual growth, potentially leading to self-realization.[47"

After the healing was done, we talked a little more. Then there was that moment where it was almost like she knew i was going to ask her about december 21st 2012. she turned to me first with the the sincerety in here eyes before i asked it. then she replied thats why I am here, thats why we're here. Overall a pretty remarkable experience. In fact I would call it one the most significant events that have taken to place in life.

strangely my life began to turn around at this point. Things were going well, i was workin with my dad, and I had Lucy back into my life. I was constantly researching informationa bout the topic. There is plenty of credible people saying the same things. I started learning to do rieki on a personal level. I just realized my dog is a lot older than i had imagined, and i am determined to keep her alive forever with reiki. ha. Things began to sync up. i wish i could explain this more. more to come on synchronocities. coincidences. I started to take a deep appreciation for energy, and nature.

Now that I had a deeper understanding of what was really going on... I was eager to experiment. So eventually, the oppurtunity arrose. Right before I took a rather small amount of fungus (compared to the experience) I looked for some guidance from higher beings to see the other side if you will. My words can not truly describe what had taken place in that room that night. By trying to do so, I feel I would weaken this post. When I feel I have successfully described it, I will post. The best I could do right now is post a youtube video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YhHm-5lKkZ0

and maybe a picture.

To be continued...

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Thoughts under attack

Author: palehorse23 from http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread325007/pg1

Thinking for Yourself is Now a Crime--must read for ATS'ers www.blacklistednews.com
Harman's bill is called the "Violent Radicalization and Homegrown Terrorism Prevention Act.

"When HR 1955 becomes law, it will create a commission tasked with identifying extremist people, groups, and ideas. The commission will hold hearings around the country, taking testimony and compiling a list of dangerous people and beliefs. The bill will, in short, create massive terrorism in the United States. But the perpetrators of terrorism will not be Muslim terrorists; they will be government agents and fellow citizens. (visit the link for the full news article) " http://www.blacklistednews.com/view.asp?ID=5175

I would also like to add this quote here.

"Who will be on the "extremist beliefs" list? The answer is: civil libertarians, critics of Israel, 9/11 skeptics, critics of the administration's wars and foreign policies, critics of the administration's use of kidnapping, rendition, torture and violation of the Geneva Conventions, and critics of the administration's spying on Americans. Anyone in the way of a powerful interest group--such as environmentalists opposing politically connected developers--is also a candidate for the list."

This scares me to a point where I am hesitant to blog about all of this. But, instead I am going to stand up in the name of TRUTH, and say fuck you to whoever tries to control my right to think. Wake up people, "Critics of the administration's wars and foreign policies.." do you know how many people that is? People of peace will be locked up and they will say its for the protection of liberty.

Ron Paul for civil liberties.


I have this guilty pleasure of abovetopsecret.com. Labeled as an "alternative topics" forum, user generated articles, ideas, experiences, news feeds, and even radio shows flood the website. Its important to trust your intuition while shuffling upon hundreds and hundred of threads. Members are pretty eager to jump on a bullshit story, but also give praise to good articles etc.

"We are the Internet's largest and most popular community dedicated to the intelligent discussion and debate of "alternative topics." With 127,346 members generating 3,759,102 posts of on 311,443 topics in 156 forums, you could say "the truth is in here.""

I will be likely to reference articles/threads from this website, but I suggest I see for yourself.




David Dodd Annotated Grateful Dead lyrics



more gd to come

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Project Blue Beam

Project Blue Beam:

"[Note: Serge Monast and another journalist, both of whom were researching Project Blue Beam, died of "heart attacks" within weeks of each other although neither had a history of heart disease. Serge was in Canada. The other Canadian journalist was visiting Ireland. Prior to his death, the Canadian government abducted Serge's daughter in an attempt to dissuade him from pursuing his research into Project Blue Beam. His daughter was never returned. Pseudo-heart attacks are one of the alleged methods of death induced by Project Blue Beam.]

The infamous NASA [National Aeronautics and Space Administration] Blue Beam Project has four different steps in order to implement the new age religion with the Antichrist at its head. We must remember that the new age religion is the very foundation for the new world government, without which religion the dictatorship of the new world order is completely impossible. I'll repeat that: Without a universal belief in the new age religion, the success of the new world order will be impossible! That is why the Blue Beam Project is so important to them, but has been so well hidden until now..." By Serge Monast

I read somewhere that a good way to resist this type of mind control is to smoke herb and meditate. ; )

Skinny Singers, Mother hips and Phil's friend

This past fall Jackie Greene of the Skinny Singers joined phil lesh on tour including a new york city 10 s how run. Thanks to tapers, technology, and my over used reference: archive.org; I was lucky enough to follow the tour only a few days behind real time. Its amazing how fast a musician can develop by playin on tour with phil. The later shows really begin to show Jackie's talent. Naturally I had looked into some of Jackies solo stuff. After I heard some of his originals from the tour, I knew i wouldn't be disapointed. Go buy it. http://www.jackie-greene.com/

It wasn't until midway through the tour that I stumbled upon a Skinny Singers show http://www.archive.org/details/skinnysingers2007-09-13.SOUNDBOARD . Heres some youtubes videos from that very show. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=07JXtVFiBU8 In the heading for this show you will notice "Tim Blauhm of the Mother Hips." Ok, so I did a search on Mother Hips, found this show http://www.archive.org/details/mh2006-03-10.mh2006-03-10_matrix_sbd.flac16 . The entire first set is Niel Youngs album Everbody knows this is nowhere. Losing End is dirty. here is the video of down by the river : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T0CJUkMvwlg Second set was dedicated to originals. this band has been around since the early 90's, its a shame th is is the first i have heard of them. It would be nice to see these bands hit up the festival scene. All their tour dates are currently west coast.