Being the new year and all, It's hard not to look back and reflect on last year. I was shocked to realize everything I had learned in only a year. Particullary, my metaphsyical journey that ive realized I have been on for awhile.
Religion was a rariety in my imidiate family. I have vaque memories of reading the bible with my mom and sister, but thats about it. As for church...I have always been mad awkward attending. I never knew any of the prayers, no one ever told me what faith to believe in. My first communion was at my friends funeral where I walked up and ate the bread drank the wine cause I didnt know any better. (I think this is what a communion is.) Despite my lack of understanding of God growing up, I was always drawn to paranormal shit, ghosts, and even aliens.
I stayed on this path all through high school and two years into college, living a social experiment gone wrong kinda life. Typical teenager story, avoiding home life by ANY means possible. To some, I am sure were worried where my life was heading, but to me it was freedom. Luckily, my parents were buisy with thier own lifes to know the extent of what was really going on. I am thankful for this however, because if it wasnt for this independance, I don't think these experiences would have ever crossed my path.
So one day, I was living at my dads and my friend came over with a handfull of fungi. I knew mushrooms were suppose to make you hallucinate etc., but I had no idea what it was going to be like. My friend told me to look at a painted picture as if it were a magic eye. And then, yes I finally "learned" how to trip. I can feel my face melting just thinking about it. Most of the night i was under an uncontrolable laughter spell. In fact I couldn't help but call my close friends only to giggle non-stop like a little school girl. Leasoned learned. Theres no cell phones in baseball. After finally chillin out, I sunk in literally to a gigantic sofa, and watched the infamous last dispatch (yes, i have to say it. where i made a 3 second cameo during elias http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Last_Dispatch_(documentary ) . Somewhere in between the amazing sound that i was hearing, and the kaledascope room, I managed to have a conversation with god. It was short and sweet. My body...somehow being part of the room, being part of everything but mostly just being. The only thing i said was god, if this is god thats making feel these unbelievable feelings, then guide me, cause if this is what heaven is like, then i want it. or something like that. Then i moved on to the rest of my trip. Woke up the next morning. THought to myself, damn, drugs are whacked, i was talkin to god and shit or myself or something last night. Tried it a couple more times on a social level. Had fun.
It was strange how things began to fall in place after all that. I moved away to college, and met this girl, we'll call her lucy. Lucy and I, had a few things in common. Most importantly, tripping and music. Lucy taught me about love...Cheesey, yes I know. Your probably thinking im talkin about the kinda love between lovers. No, I am talkin about the love that the Beatles spoke of. "All you need is love..." kinda love. you get it. hippie bullshit. We rarely talked about it, instead she would make me listen to the beatles during a trip to get the message. I began to think a lot differently, and actually acting on it. Such a transition too fast can be some what depressing. I started to realize all the fucked up things in this world. Started to really take a look at myself, and who I had become, and how I had been taking part in all the bullshit. Sometimes I questioned my sanity. Questioned the drugs.
Then almost a year ago. I was surfin the internet on some etheogens, and I stumbled across someones myspace that was completey dedicated to the infamous 2012 date. This was the first time hearing of such a thing, but i became obsessed almost imediately. Obsessed you ask? I know it sounds like i want destruction chaos...no, not at all. Read my previouss post for my view of this date. I want to say with in a week of this discovery, my mother had went to see a woman who called herself a spirititual healer. My mom made her out to be a phsycic, and I quickly became skeptical. I ended up showing my mom the myspace pages, and she insisted that I went to see this woman.
I had made a date to meet with the woman. I talked to a very close friend of mine who supports my insanity, and i told her that i will bring up the date to this woman, and see what she has to say about it. She replied that if its true then that theres a good reason to live rest of life as a party if you will. Partying isnt much my thing any more. so instead I would settle with complete freedom.
So a little more information on this woman. My moms friend had met her in california one time, and somehow they became friends. She came to visit for a little while, and stayed with my moms friend. I showed up to the house not knowing what to expect. Sometimes when you first see someone, you just know. Its like when a potsmoker sees another potsmoked. Got Blunt, Got weed? She was older, but yet young in her appearance. I want to say she had strands of gray hair, but that could just be my impression of wisdom that I am remembering. Either way i think you get the idea.
She sat me down in a recling chair. Got comfortable, and relaxed. she then put her hands near my ankles, and began to chit chat. mostly small stuff, icebreakers i guess. I couldn't go into exact detail of what we talked about. I remember a little bit on quantum physics (she passed down "what the bleap do we know" in trade of some ganj). She spoke about a grid like field or force around the earth. I would notice her hands being extrememly warm as she moved them on different parts of the body. I told her about my interest in psycadelics. I tried to stay away from questions like am i going to be rich, or about my future. I was more concerned about the science and energy behind all of this. I later researched this form of "healing" as called Reiki
Reiki http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Reiki
"In a typical whole-body Reiki treatment,[29] the practitioner asks the recipient to lie down, usually on a massage table, and relax. Loose, comfortable clothing is usually worn during the treatment. The practitioner might take a few moments to enter a calm or meditative state of mind and mentally prepare for the treatment,[30] which is usually carried out without any unnecessary talking.[31]
The treatment proceeds with the practitioner placing his hands on the recipient in various positions. However, some practitioners use a non-touching technique, where the hands are held a few centimetres away from the recipient's body, for some or all of the positions. The hands are usually kept still for 3 to 5 minutes before moving to the next position. Overall, the hand positions usually give a general coverage of the head, the front and back of the torso, the knees and feet. Between 12 and 20 positions are used, with the whole treatment lasting 45 to 90 minutes.[32]
Some practitioners use a fixed set of hand positions. Others use their intuition to guide them as to where treatment is needed,[33] sometimes starting the treatment with a 'scan' of the recipient to find such areas. The intuitive approach might also lead to individual positions being treated for much shorter or longer periods of time.
It is reported that the recipient often feels warmth or tingling in the area being treated, even when a non-touching approach is being used. A state of deep relaxation, combined with a general feeling of well-being, is usually the most noticeable immediate effect of the treatment, although emotional releases can also occur.[34] As the Reiki treatment is said to be stimulating natural healing processes, instantaneous 'cures' of specific health problems are not usually observed. A series of three or more treatments, typically at intervals of 1 to 7 days, is usually recommended if a chronic condition is being addressed.[35] Regular treatments, on an on-going basis, can be used with the aim of maintaining well-being. The interval between such treatments is typically in the range of 1 to 4 weeks, except in the case of self-treatment when a daily practice is common.[36]...
...Spiritual practice
Many practitioners use Reiki as the basis of a spiritual practice, or to augment other spiritual practices. The cornerstone of Reiki spiritual practice is a daily one hour self-treatment,[46] conducted in a meditative frame of mind. As well as maintaining physical, mental and emotional well-being, this practice is understood to induce spiritual growth, potentially leading to self-realization.[47"
After the healing was done, we talked a little more. Then there was that moment where it was almost like she knew i was going to ask her about december 21st 2012. she turned to me first with the the sincerety in here eyes before i asked it. then she replied thats why I am here, thats why we're here. Overall a pretty remarkable experience. In fact I would call it one the most significant events that have taken to place in life.
strangely my life began to turn around at this point. Things were going well, i was workin with my dad, and I had Lucy back into my life. I was constantly researching informationa bout the topic. There is plenty of credible people saying the same things. I started learning to do rieki on a personal level. I just realized my dog is a lot older than i had imagined, and i am determined to keep her alive forever with reiki. ha. Things began to sync up. i wish i could explain this more. more to come on synchronocities. coincidences. I started to take a deep appreciation for energy, and nature.
Now that I had a deeper understanding of what was really going on... I was eager to experiment. So eventually, the oppurtunity arrose. Right before I took a rather small amount of fungus (compared to the experience) I looked for some guidance from higher beings to see the other side if you will. My words can not truly describe what had taken place in that room that night. By trying to do so, I feel I would weaken this post. When I feel I have successfully described it, I will post. The best I could do right now is post a youtube video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YhHm-5lKkZ0
and maybe a picture.
To be continued...
1 comment:
Nice post ;)
I think you've found the inner light.
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